Pregnancy after Miscarriage: My Story

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Pregnancy is often portrayed as a time of joy, excitement, and glowing anticipation. But for some of us, those who have lost, grieved, and lived through impossible moments, pregnancy becomes something else entirely.

It becomes a balancing act between hope and fear, love and heartbreak, faith and anxiety.

This is my story.

A High-Risk Start: Bicornuate Uterus

During my first pregnancy, while we were stationed overseas in Portugal, I found out that I had a bicornuate uterus which is a heart-shaped uterus that can cause complications during pregnancy.

It was scary news, especially as a first-time mom. But thankfully, that pregnancy went relatively smooth.

I returned home (Florida) toward the end of my pregnancy to celebrate my first birth surrounded by family. Although I started having contractions at 35 weeks, I was then bed-ridden for two weeks after she tried to make her appearance too early. She stayed put making her grand entrance right at the 37-week mark the day after daddy flew in from Portugal.

Once she was born, we faced a new challenge: getting her a passport as a newborn so we could travel back to Portugal where we were currently stationed with the military. Navigating newborn life plus international travel wasn’t easy, but it reminded me that our journey into parenthood was already full of unexpected adventures.

At the time, I thought: Maybe it won’t be so hard next time.

But life had other lessons waiting.

Losses and a Christmas Miracle

After my daughter, I faced three heartbreaking miscarriages , and each one deepened the fear inside me. Each loss made pregnancy feel more fragile, more uncertain. They varied in severity, and were filled with so much sadness and heartbreak.

Months later, when I became pregnant again, it ended up being my Christmas miracle baby who was born at 28 weeks after a terrifying placental abruption while visiting family in Texas on Christmas day.

That pregnancy was high-risk from the start:

• Weekly ultrasounds
• Weekly progesterone shots to help prevent early labor
• Endless prayers at every appointment

When he was born early, our journey didn’t stop at delivery and it continued into a long, emotional NICU stay that shook me to my core. Away from home. In a three month long journey.

Even after bringing him home, I wondered if I could ever survive another pregnancy or another possible loss.

God’s Timing and a Pregnancy

Deep down, a part of me still longed for one more baby. But I knew I couldn’t force it. I had to trust God’s timing and he lead the way.

When the time was right, unpredictably, beautifully, he nudged me forward.

I became pregnant again, right before we moved from Nevada to New Mexico. And while fear flooded my heart immediately, so did something else: hope. I attended my sisters wedding with all my family, and without excitement to announce my pregnancy. We kept it a secret(just in case).

We were stationed in New Mexico when I reached my second trimester, and the nearest high-risk doctor was an hour and a half away. That didn’t feel very comforting, but somehow, through prayer and faith, this pregnancy became the smoothest one yet.

In their eyes I wasn’t considered high-risk just because I was prior. Aside from constant first-trimester nausea, everything went as it should.

At 37 weeks exactly, we welcomed our third little miracle into the world safe, strong, and perfect via C-Section.

No NICU stay. Just tears of overwhelming gratitude.

What Pregnancy After Loss Really Feels Like

Pregnancy after miscarriage doesn’t erase the past. It carries it.

It’s feeling hope and fear in the same breath. It’s celebrating quietly, loving fiercely, and grieving silently, sometimes all in the same day.

It’s checking every symptom. It’s praying at every ultrasound. It’s falling in love with a life you’re terrified to lose.

It’s faith stitched with fear, and it’s the bravest thing I’ve ever done.

If you’re walking this road too, I see you.
I honor your story.
And I want you to know: You are not alone.

FAQ: Pregnancy After Miscarriage: My Story

What does pregnancy after miscarriage feel like?
Pregnancy after miscarriage often feels like hope and fear woven together. It brings moments of joy, anxiety, and deep love all at once.

How can moms cope with pregnancy after loss?
Moms can cope by leaning on support systems, talking to doctors, practicing self-compassion, and allowing themselves to feel both the hope and the fear.

Is it normal to feel scared during pregnancy after loss?
Yes. It’s completely normal to feel scared during pregnancy after miscarriage. Fear does not mean you are weak, it means you deeply love the life you are carrying.